“Once we recognize the fact that every individual is a treasury of hidden and unsuspected qualities, our lives become richer, our judgment better, and our world is more right. It is not love that is blind, it is only the unnoticed eye that cannot see the real qualities of people.”
― Charles H. Percy
Do you recall me? The girl who loved you more than herself. From the moment we met, I knew that I would love you forever and that no one could ever make me feel the way you did. However, it took me a long time to realize that you were playing emotional games with me. It was a back-and-forth game for years.
You were my everything. You were the only person I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. I always looked forward to seeing you, and I was so in love with you when we were young. I treasure the moments we shared that were special and fun.
I never understood why you treated me the way you did. All I wanted was to give you the love I believed you deserved, but you destroyed me instead.
For years, you convinced me that you loved me and would do anything to make me happy, but you fed me lies, and our relationship gradually developed on the basis of those lies. You tortured me with your words, lied to me when I knew the truth, and treated me differently in public.
You made me believe that everything was my fault, not yours. You neglected me whenever you had the chance and were silent whenever you were upset with me. I sacrificed everything to make our relationship work, but you failed to do any of it. You promised me that you would change and not repeat the same mistake, but you never did. You always went back to your old ways. As a result, I was consumed by disapproval, lack of respect, lies, and manipulation.
I thought I deserved you, that there was no one else who could love me the way you did because you had played me.
Think about the girl who hated herself, who had to force herself to wake up every morning. Think about the girl who suffered silently, and all the things you never saw or experienced.
When I finally left your toxic love, I couldn’t imagine being with another man, which is why we kept going back to each other. However, you repeated the same mistakes, and things didn’t work out.
I am grateful for you being a part of my life, for emotionally destroying my confidence and making me think that I was never good enough for you or anyone else.
Now I know that even though you thought you deserved me, it was not the same for me. I deserve someone who can love me unconditionally. Someone who can hold my hand in public and walk beside me, not in front of me.
I realize that I lost someone who shouldn’t have been in my life in the first place, but you lost someone who did everything to keep you in that place. I am thankful that you hurt me because it made me realize that walking away was the best decision I ever made.
Thank you for bringing me to my lowest, and a big thank you for putting me through darkness and helping me grow.
